Dear Hearts~
How are each of you? Being well, I hope. I'm curled up under my favorite blanket with my new Sony laptop resting strategically on a tiny pillow. I feel so grateful to be snuggled up in my soft and fluffy bed. As I drift off to dream tonight, I'll be thinking about a buzz word that seems to be swirling (and yes, just for the record...swirling is my favorite word ever & hence the reason why I use it 10 times a day and in almost every post I write!) around me lately...INTEGRITY.
It makes me wonder...why so many people lack it? By no means am I trying to come from a holy-than-thou-place-of-self-righteousness...because God knows that I am not perfect. I do, however, wonder how so many people are able to live with themselves while intentionally hurting others by being purposefully dishonest? Why must there be so many unawakened souls sleeping walking through life completely oblivious to how their selfish actions might contribute to another persons pain?
For most people, there is a moment just before you act out in a way that might be harmful to others, that causes you to think. It's that still small voice that tells you that you're about to step from a light-filled from a place of integrity to the dark side of dishonesty. The undeniable tug on your heart string that alerts you that you are dangerously close to betraying yourself by going against the highest part of your heart, and that you're dancing on the edge of irreversibly hurting yourself and/or others.
While I hold compassion in my heart for people who make mistakes and who earnestly try to learn from them...it's a whole different thing to accept people who repeatedly live in ways that are consistently less than honest. You know...those people who seem to have the "honesty/integrity chip" missing??
I'm beginning to realize that unfortunately not all people have a "Jiminy Cricket..Lord High Keeper of the Knowledge of Right and Wrong, Counselor in Moments of Temptation, and Guide along the Straight and Narrow Path" hanging out on their shoulder. Well, actually they do. Everybody has a conscience. It's just too bad that not everybody's mindful enough to actually live by it.
Until now, I have been kept super-naturally guarded from the harsh lessons of betrayal, dishonesty, and deceit. I've naively assumed that those closest to me held the same moral and ethical beliefs that I do and that they too, strived to reach the same spiritual standards of love, truth, honesty, and respect that I've committed my life to explore.
I guess I'm stuck on the word, integrity because in truth, it's what I'm searching for most in my own life right now. I'm looking for it within myself, in my all of my relationships (past, present, and future), in my friendships...and even in my girls. I'm craving painfully honest, direct, open, and raw relationships that are grounded in trust.
Interestingly enough, it's been through my own life lessons in recent months which has helped me to give birth to a new purpose regarding my own children. I've re-committed myself to teaching them that it's not what they do when they may have earthly eyes upon them, but the integrity they keep in the moments of truth when only the eyes of the universe are watching.
My greatest legacy will be the beautiful souls I hope to send into the world with sound character and strength, so as not to hurt others the way that I have seen and felt in recent days.
Oh, how many hearts could be spared, if only everyone let their conscience be their guide...
With huge hugs and sweet cheek angel kisses,
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